Hi.

I've not been doing much these days other than slacking and snacking on the Chinese New Year's tidbits HAHAHA. I enjoy doing that, don't ask me why :D

Okay so teaching those kids on Saturday seemed to be slightly better, probably because they're used to me and I'm kind of used to them already. Haha but there's just this one guy who doesn't listen to me still. I should start my bribing trick now. Sunday was as usual, church and then Yppae. Cried out alot in church and I think I feel better. Yppae was horrible, with everybody talking when I'm teaching, not to mention that all their actions were so urgh, ugly. What saddens me is that even those older ones are playing a fool as well. I did not say anything and I doubt they know it anyway. Sigh. Not easy to be director ):

Yesterday, I went swimming opposite my house, hahahaha. Big time man, and I pissed Jonathan off as well. Hurray. I guess no one really bothers about him, roarrr. Spent my day today playing gunbound and watching My Mvp Valentine :D

I love Iceman and GaoXing. HAHAHA :D

I'm going church tmr to work out the video (: And I need to start woking after Cny >:(

I made many poly friends on Gunbound hahahahaha.

Taurus- The Tramp

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight. Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.

Looks like that's what I'm good at. HAHA.

Alright to those who out there who are really concerned about me, thanks a million. I appreciate it alot and yeah thanks, love you guys so much <3

Hey faker, don't come and pretend k. Ty.

I trust in God and my faith will not be shaken.

It's hard to not feel inferior when your friends around you get into the places you want to be at and you are not part of it, instead you end up somewhere else.

I hate trying to act strong and tough on the outside when I feel like crumbling on the inside.

I hate trying to act like I dont care when I care about it so much.

I hate trying to force a smile and say I'm okay when I'm not.

I'm not.


Give me a break.
I'll be back in no time. The Down Season's ending.

To those out there who are really concerned about me, I'm really okay, with a little disappointment here and there, overall I still can survive such a blow.

Nyjc's orientation might not be the best, but it sure is one that is pretty fun. I love my Og I love the people in there, it's a good place to be in. I'm in Yancey2 and this has been an awesome group :D I wont say the guys are hot, but they are plesant looking. HAHA. I really did enjoy myself yesterday, with the disco night and dance and out for supper with the other eight of them :D It's a different experience and this made me more interested in Ngee Ann Poly's orientaion, I suppose it will be even more high and crazy.

Honestly, if I were to say that I'm not at least affected by their decision, I'd be lying so badly. In fact, I did had two drops of tears. Hahaha. I expected it, so my reaction wasnt that bad. I trust God that Ny really might not be the place I belong, I believe that He has a great plan for me and I will not doubt any of it. Twice I tried, twice I failed, and so there must be a reason why I'm not posted to Ny. Afterall like what my couz said, poly might not be a bad thing. I recognise myself as someone who isnt the study kind, perhaps poly might just be the kind that I can do well and survive in.

I'm still glad that I made friends with my Og. Yanceys so awesome, we won the best tribe :D


I dont know if you guys are really that concerned or was that just a superficial kind of show, because afterall, you guys managed to get in and doesnt even matter to anyone if im in or not. It doesnt bother to say a few comforts or so. Look if that's the case, I really have to make friends carefully from now.


东家不打，打西家。

I will make it to university :D

Hello all I'm here to update again!

On Monday I went picnic with Weiping and BrendaLee at Marina Barrage. It seems like the place for picnic will always be there. HAHAHA. So windy and so fun :D We cooked our healthy food and brought there to eat, but apparently quite alot was thrown away because no one wants the Garlic Crabstick Mayo Sandwich by Weiping. Hahahaha. It was good to catch up with them, looking at sunset, sitting under the stars and having girls' chat. Hahaha we always do that. We tried flying some unwanted kite thrown at the grass and we took a whole lot of pictures <3


On Tuesday I went out with Yingtong to buy school bags and wallets :D So pretty and awesome yo. Man I seriously hate crowded places, especially Bugis Street. Suck big time. Then we went Arcade, how fun :D But the games were expensive :/ Still good to go out with Tong! <3

Today. I heard my phone had a message and I woke up quickly and read it.

I WAS POSTED TO NGEE ANN POLY O:

So my whole day was rather ruined because I was so desperate to get into Ny. And suprisingly many didnt get in as well :/ Went to Nyjc with Tracy to check about the appeal. Not much of help. Then I went back home to take a nap before meeting Weiping. Played pool at woodlands, then we had our dinner and then arcade, DDR :DD Afterthat I checked my phone, and I realised,

I HAVE TWO MISSED CALLS FROM NANYANG O:

I called back 11 times but no one picked up; I called the teacher twice no one picked up, neither did she reply my message, I was like SHIT OKAY NO HOPE. On my way back on the train, the teacher called and asked if I'm willing to take up the offer :DD YAY.

Thank you Jesus, for listening to my prayers, for being so real to me, and loving me so much. God I love you and I give thanks unto you Lord! :D I LOVE YOU JESUS LOVE YOU LOVE YOU. PRAISE YOU HALLELUJAH !

So happy so excited! Thankyou besttieeeee for supporting me today, so happy that we'll be seeing each other everyday soon :D <3 you.

Happy Birthday Mak Carmen! :D

What if I dont want to be your meimei,

What nonsense, seriously.

You lose my shirt, and you say I'm just not fated to have that shirt. C'mon Mom, come to me with a better excuse please. I didnt get that shirt easily, what exactly is your problem by flaring at me for nothing and all.

Whatever.

Yesterday I went out with Weinenggor and Xiaojunjie for Kbox at Kallang Leisure Park(thirdtime) HAHAHAHA. He had one hour to warm up himself because Xiaojunjie and I have our own lessons and we can only meet him after that. So anyway I spent my money like Xuehai again, after Kbox we went arcade. Wanted to go pool, but there isnt any pool place nor Kpool, so yeah arcade lo :D Both of them damn retard at the new bishibashi game. HAHAHAHA. We were out together till eleven at DhobyGaut :D

Today as usual I had church then I went to Yppae. Okay I must say they are making improvements but it gets really irritating when they dont listen and talk among themselves lnb. Roarrr. Mls constantly giving me stress >:( And so after a few hours we started playing games :D How fun! Oh and I think Mls is irritated with me b'cos this is the second time I'm complaining to her. Yknw, those really complain. HAHA I really couldnt stand some of the people.

AHHHHHH WHATEVERRRR.

Yes yes yes tomorrow got Haipai! :DD

I've been going out these days and I'm spending money like I'm Xuehai, so rich. Sigh.

Tuesday :D
Kbox with Joey only because Tracy couldnt make it, then Yingtong couldnt make it at the last min as well. So we just went ourselves (: Haha so long never catch up with her, she's still as crazy as ever. HAHA.

Wednesday :D
Went to Chengyi's house with Ribbon, Jiayu, Janeal, Zoe :D Hahahaha it's so fun playing Wii together, especially house of the dead and the ddr. HAHAHA I totally love that man. We sat down and chat about almost everything, mainly the people in our school and where we will end up, our ambitions and stuff, feels good :D I still remember we finished Chengyi's crackers. We ate alotttt O:

Thursday :D
I went out with Wenxi that day. We wanted to go play pool at her club, but sadly she's only a junior member and therefore she cannot bring the guest in, so in the end we went to bishan and played the arcade! Hahaha yay I own her in all the games! :D Afterthat we went to watch Sherlock Holmes. Seh the show is so cool, Holmes analyse how to beat someone up. HAHA coolio. I like going out with Wenxi haha, she's such a joker HAHA.

Today :D
Went Kbox (secondtime) with the chinese literature people, Yingtong, Zhuangwen, Fionn and Chaiyi (: Haha they sing the FaDaTong song until I not interested in him anymore. HAHA of course I went to sing my Laoge as usual :D So fun! Then I went to church, so awesome! :D

I wnder what's with me, because I keep watching Haipai lnb, it's just such an awesome show. And I cant wait for the dvd to be out! Heard that it's coming out next week! Then I dont have to wait for the episode week by week.

School posting out on Wednesday, school's starting on Thursday. Man, I still want to play, but I'm excited about going to school meeting new friends and all :D

I shall enjoy my life as much as I can, before school starts and nightmare begins O:

Will I use the word Love

For you

Give it up, what am I thinking.

Finished 11 episodes of HaiPaiTianXin in two days and it's definitely annoying to wait for the next one to come out because the story is getting more and more interesting :D

Had lesson again with those six year old kids. Seriously, they are really those hyper active ones who can't stand nor sit still. They just have to run about. I almost wanted to beat them up HAHAHAHA.

Today was a farewell party for Liying Jie :D It's so fun being at the Marina Barrage, and playing all the mhc games there, although there are really times where we almost got killed by the kites that drop near or on us. How ridiculous, but they are sure entertainments, for me at least. HAHA they say I laugh at them very loudly. Not my fault la my voice loud mah :D Picnic and took tons of pictures. XiaoJun Jie's pasta was .. Not too bad. HAHAHAHA.

Submitted the school admission form already, shall just wait for the posting (:

Tmr's another round of Yppae. Sigh, with those bunch of people who are not willing to dance properly :/ And that girl with attitude problem who is so arrogant >:( Tingjun might not be able to perform, sigh, I guess I wont be up too then :/ Nevermind, shall wait for the July one :D

Church tmr, hopefully I'll wake up early! :D

Anyway, I've realised, I no longer like him already, I guess my feelings fade fast huh. And what's with Weijie's sudden interest in messaging me these days -.-

I kind of miss studying O: But I'm sure when I need to study in school, I'll miss the times during the holidays. HAHAHA.

<3

<一棵开花的树>

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻

为这
我已在佛前求了五百年
求佛让我们结一段尘缘
佛於是把我化做一棵树
长在你必经的路旁

阳光下
慎重地开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走近
请你细听
那颤抖的叶
是我等待的热情

而当你终於无视地走过
在你身後落了一地的
朋友啊
那不是花瓣
那是我凋零的心

强颜欢笑；

骗得了别人，却骗不了自己。

TOMORROW.

HELLO ALL I WENT OUT WITH MY COUZZ TODAY.

Both of them are really fun to be with :D Oh and I spent thirty bucks today :/ Almost died, thank God for the thing called- Atm Card. HAHA. I met them at the tamp area because that's their areaaaa. Hahaha we caught this movie called Old Dogs. Pretty funny, I thought the movie wasnt as bad as I thought. The theatre was really small, I've never been to such a small one O: Perhaps because there wasnt too many people therefore you can enjoy the show better haha.

Had Pepper Lunch for Lunch. HA. What a joke. After lunch went to buy bubble tea- Banana oreo. HA it sucks so guys dont try it. We sat down at the Sunplaza Park because we couldnt find a place to sit and chat. So sat at the park and THERE WERE SO MANY MARTINS AROUND. Ants. In the end I still sat down because we stayed there rather long. Cut the story short, there were two gangs- The malay gang, the chinese gang.

Malay gang: There are two groups to it. But both groups are dancers. One is more experienced I guess, another one is just learning. Haha the learning group really very lousy, the three of us looked at it a few times and we could do it already! O:

Chinese gang: This group of twelve is really a cool gang. They all have the same bike, but they modified it and each have different colours (Hot pink, green, blue, purple, gold, orange), some had repeated ones though. But they really can do so much stunts with it and it's just so freaking awesome and cool :D And some are not bad looking. They look pretty young though, prolly my age? HA.

Went for dinner at Pastamania and we ordered the cheapest pasta. Lol. After that we went arcade (Now you know where my money went) HAHAHA. We went around minitoons and all, haha so fun! Especially with those chinese new year songs playing. HAHA.

Yay I enjoyed myself so much with them <3

Hi guys I'm friend-locking this livejournal already.

HEY HAHA if you want to read create an account then add me as friend!

I guess things in here would be getting more personal.

See you all soon.

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
-Romans8: 38-39

I cried after reading this verse.

For now, nothing else matters, Your love for me is greater than anything. I might as well have a closer and better relationship with You than pinning hopes for the world.  

Unlike them, I can depend on you Lord.

I choose not to bother about it anymore. Till their time comes.


The world says, " Prove it to me and I'll believe," but the Lord says, " Believe me and I'll prove it."

Friends it's my fault okay, stop behaving like this. Everything is pointing its finger at me, yeah fine I take it. Bitch about me and all to one another. I'm the one with issues, You guys were never wrong. I'm only her substitute, I was never your best friend was I? I was the one spoiling you and her friendship. I'm only second to her. I'm not even a substitute I think. I sincerely wish that you and her would be best friends for life.

Seven more days to O's! And I feel quilty of not keeping my laptop away.
I would never want that scenario to happen, even if we are just friends. I dont like the idea of being on rough terms with you, I dont like being the one shouting and giving attitude at you even when I know it wont be your fault, I dont like anything that would make you upset or hurt.
Nevertheless, I'm not going to give up my Sundays for God! :D
I've been trying to change my temper already
Am I still the hot-tempered girl in your eyes
I dreamt of you 
I tried to tell myself to stop thinking about you
A hundred times
& I still cannot forget you
HAHA don't read too much! :D Go and study everybodaeeeeee

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