Don't hate me please

I thought there would be a peaceful ending

Today we met f4 alike in ourspace.

Moving to another blog

Nubububo commented some unrelated nonsense -.- I don't even understand IT'S english.

HAHAHAHAHA LOSER WHO HAS BAD VOCABULARY HAHAHA

Seems like every time I post there must sure be something unhappy. Ala who cares.

You know, you can actually ask around my Stnicks friends, ask them how accommodating, compromising I am towards you. It's not just you, I as well am disappointed. I don't know why I really don't. I don't see the point in putting all those facebook status to convey your unhappiness to me, I don't see the point in blogging it out so obviously. Like hello, you were the one who blackfaced suddenly because I asked you to write your own comment, you slam your book and your phone and ignored me throughout the seminar. Honestly I don't see what wrong I have. And to be honest, if one day we really split clique, I also believe we're going to be opposite stands. It's just that, I do treasure you as my friend and all. Most importantly I don't have to prove myself to be right to prove that you're wrong. Yeah I didn't want to start a facebook status war, so I chose to ignore your statuses. Sure go ahead and bitch about me again to your bf if you want. Sigh.

SIGHHHHH.

Take care and really, all the best <3 I don't know your point in telling my mom you were going ns, but yeah either way I got to know it and

My head is filled with you omg.


SIGHHHHH.

Damnit competition coming next Sunday and I'm so freaking weak. Own. Sure kena thrashed like some rubbish. ):

Rather than facebooking all the time playing bejewel, I think blogging would be more interesting. And yeah I think I should update more often here like what Yujun said. Hahaha.

This is week13 of school already. All I can say is that I screwed pretty badly for my modules and I doubt I can even get 3.5 for Gpa. So much for wanting a high Gpa -.- Sucks when school isn't easy to score. Ahhh.

Oh today I had a date with Sam. Our first date. He's very interesting :D Going out with To2 is so fun hahaha I'm falling in love with my class so awesome right.

Did I mention that I'm in Judo? Yes right now my cca is Judo. And I was 'nominated' by my Captain to be the Vice treasurer and step into the Comm. I'm not sure if this is a good news or bad one, because I'm still a newbie in Judo and I suck at flipping people HAHA. So far I've been appointed to do many things, but I think I enjoy it more than Db. Moreover Db got no place for me to get into Comm. Lol.

I dont understand why people like to push the blame to the person they like, like for not liking them back or sth. I dont get it. If you truly love that person, wont you just want them to be happy and not bother who is beside them instead of you? It might hurt that's for sure, but I'm sure time would help you feel better. Sigh what's the point of saying all these right. I'm not that experienced anyway right. Yeah.

Oh yes Hongtang3's over. Like yes finally. I didnt ask any friends this year. I felt it was pointless. Like, do your friends really want to watch you or because they find it hard to turn you down that's why they came? I dont know the answer neither do I want to know the answer. Had a hard time performing this year, didnt like anything. Like anything. I dont belong to the older ones, I dont belong to the younger ones. Why am I not born earlier or later? Sht this. It's always this problem. I act like I'm not affected BUT I AM I FREAKING AM AFFECTED. You guys having fun, bonding together but what, I'm alone at one side DO YOU SEE IT?! No you guys dont. I'm not blaming you guys because it's not really your fault in leaving me out, but I really dont see the effort in including me. Yeah sure whatever I chose to go to oneside you might say, but yeah who cares it's over. Have your lunch tgt forever or sth, continue flirting I dont mind.

Shit why am I so pissed right now. Ignore what I said. I just want to rant. If you ever get offended, or spread what I said, you can just scram off. Like really.

I can't help but to be over sensitive about this because she's obviously nicer prettier and everything better than me, it gives you more excuses to talk to her than me right C. Sigh whateverrrr. Why should I bother right, though I really treat you as a very good friend. Ala go talk to her more get her to come into comm and replace me lor like I care.



As much as I want to deny my heart

Deep down I still miss you

And I bet you dont even know.

Finally a day that I can rest so I can post what's been going on in my life since forever. HAHAHAHA.

My term break came, and in that two pathetic weeks of my only break, one week was gone for dance and camp, the other week was gone for school. Irritating lecturers who fall sick on lesson days and then they want to use our hols to have their make up lessons. Zzz but it's good to see my friends again, it seemed like a thousand years not seeing them. But normally we see each other because of projectssssss. Second term of school is starting next week, and I have no idea how I'm going to cope because the workload and projects are coming twice as much as before. Right. And I must say, class has been fun, though there are alot of times you feel that you're one of the worst and yet they are still playing politics and strategies. Oh wells, being in Poly is like being in the real society of life, just that it's a smaller scale. HAHA on the brighter side, one more term then we gonna have one month study break. WOAHHHHHH jealous huh. Only for this time because got yog. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ltd church camp was great, I've never been so on fire since dont know when. I like how God speaks to me through authorities and I like my bunk mates HAHAHAHAHA. We talk and talk and talk and talk about so many thinggggs :D I feel refreshed and healed :D

I wouldn't say that Yppae camp was a success, but somehow it was and it was really fun, on my side. AHAHAHA. There wasn't too big a problem though (: And I love the Exco tee :D So prettaye! I'm glad that we talked things out seriously, or the outcome might be worseee O: But well it's over and we hoped that you guys understand it form our point of view and yeah :D

Okay not many people know about my blog, but I shall just blog it out anyway. :D

Kanxy, although you still have much room for improvement, but at least I can see that you're trying, I'm really hoping that next year you're going to do great okay! It might be tough, but it's going to be awesome at the end! This year we might be a little screwed here and there, forgetting to bring some stuff, but who cares we managed to last through the camp :D So yays to you!

Peifen, I hope you're feeling okay already, and I really don't want this to be your last camp ): But if it is, you still got to work hard if you're going jc and show your dad that you can juggle both sides well then you can come back to us okay!! Our doors are open for you, always. I love you babe <3 You've been awesome in this camp :D All the best for O's :D

Jinyang, hahaha you cute little thing HAHAHAHAHA. You've been efficient, I must say, kudos to you! Hopefully you can take time out for next year's camp as well! :D You've been really fun to be with (:

Qianhui, thank you so muchhh in this camp, maybe one reason is because you're in logistics but you've really done so much and we're really thankful about it! :D And yeah you finally flared that's cool! HAHAHAHA. All the best for your O's, see you next year again ya!! HEH. Love you <3

Tingjun, mmm worked together for three years already, what else can I say. HAHAHA. Thanks for taking over our shift for making breakfast, we didnt mean to oversleep so muchh LOL.

I still remember the exco trying to come out with the skit idea while doing sentry and in the end everyone was so tired to come out with ideas ): But at least we did perform well and yay! HAHAHA. I hope I can stay in exco next year ): I'M TURNING EIGHTEEN NEXT YEAR GOSH. Though the exco is becoming bigger cos we got to teach the younger ones :D But still I want leh. Sianzxzxzxz.

And so, you didn't come. I expected it. Happy belated Birthday anyway.

Yay going out with my couz later :D

Asshole. I'm so pissed off with you RAY NG. You can go and die!!!!! Wth simplicity is my ppt style cannot is it, must say in front of the style I need to improve is it?! Fk. Anything you bushuang just say everything out la! So smart say all la! Fk.

Never do anything comment so much, stupidd idiot. I feel like slapping the hell of you.

:D fkers.

I hate being sick especially when the medicines you take would make you drowsy and want to sleep. It just wastes my time by sleeping the entire day and then I panic for not doing anything. Ahh life sucks. Urgh.

I'm well aware of where I'm standing. True, I'm not as pretty as her, I'm not as slim as her, I'm not as likeable as her, I'm not the girl that the guys would want to come or protect me, I know. I know it all. But sometimes when reality just smacks right in your face, there would still be a pinch of pain. Right I should be used to it anyway.

Didn't go for yppae practice because I wasn't feeling well. Sian. Think Xiaojunjie must be pissed at me or sth. Oh wells.

I think I'm going to screw up my week8 this week. Interviewing Denise is not going to be easy, especially when I want to let the class know more about her. This is so challenging that I have nothing to say, HAHA. Okay I just hope that it's gonna be fine and I can score well for it.

You know, sometimes I really dont know what to feel about you. Should I be glad that I can no longer find back that feeling and have aready moved on, or should I be sad that I've lost it? Okay who cares about it anyway. WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON MAN SERIOUSLY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT.

Hey you're like my closest friend in np yknow, why are you treating me this way? It wasn't my fault that I'm born a Teochew! And it's also not confirmed that I would definitely get the teochew scholarship right! Why do you have to sound so sour on facebook? What "unfair luh". The other time you got the np scholarship interview I didnt even say a thing but hoped for the best for you, and now just because I'm a teochew and I qualify for one criteria and you're like jealous over it?! I know you want it as well, but I cannot do anything also what, must I not apply for it then you'll be happy with me? Is there really no competition between true friends? I really dont know what's wrong. Urgh. So irritating. I reapeat, it's freaking not my fault that I'm born a Teochew okay. Why don't blame your parents for not being teochew instead? Ahhhh pissing. I know you're trying to beat me in all areas in school, I know, and you should be glad that you've won almost everything we've been competing. SO STOP BEING SO PETTY ABOUT THAT SCHOLARSHIP. IT'S NOT EVEN A CONFIRMED IF I CAN GET IT. The school is so freaking huge, how many teochews are doing much better than me, especially I'm a 16 pointer loser for O's. I know you're a 7 pointer, I know. That's why you're feeling unfair. Go your dialect and find scholarship la!! Why must you make me feel so bad just because I'm applying for it?! I hoped the best for your scholarship, why can't you do the same to me as well? I'm really disappointed.

I need alot of money like ALOT. $65 for judo gii, $65 for yppae camp. And others. I cannot remember. Ahh crappp moneyyyyy.

No more.

I really didnt want to say anything about it, but since that incident it triggered the bomb in me and you shall just wait and see.

I understand that you want to keep secrets. But is there a better way to do it? Why is it that you can tell Km and not us? Are we not your closer friends? What is your problem? You better not come and ask for my help from now because you've never treated me as your friend did you? I really cannot stand it. It just pisses me off so much that I want to tell you straight in the face but I'm afraid it might just worsen our relationship when it wasnt that good to start with.

I can also understand that you are the chairman of this camp. It's alright to ask your exco to do things, but your attitude aint right. What, you're younger than us, so please give respect. We might be a gang, but still, if it's because of this reason and so you dont give a fking damn care about us. Think twice. Dont think you got Tj as your backup and so you can bring the girls down. it's not like P didn't want to get her job done, can you not understand that she's taking her O's this year and damnit, you cannot give her more time to do it is it? If you are so impatient then do it yourself. These things should be done earlier, but who was the one who called for a break and so we didnt have meeting for several weeks. Who was the one who thought that we were so ahead of the time? Think again. I really hate to say that you're useless or sth but please show me that you can do it. I've been accommodating you and your actions for so long that I can no longer stand it and therefore I'm writing it out. If you're pissed at her for not doing her job well, shouldnt we also be pissed at you too? Urgh.

Go ahead and be pissed with me if you want. Go ahead and tell the person who can back you up. At most I get into another quarrel with him, that's all. I had enough of it.

Thanks.